Another month. Another cycle. Another ovulation. October let’s go. By this time, I was ready every month for my cycle; for it to come and go so we can try again during the ovulation window to create and be blessed with a baby of our own. I had sort of given up on the maybe’s: maybe this will be my month I miss a cycle, maybe my stomach pains means I am pregnant, or simply maybe it’s just not in the cards, although I was still looking out the side of my eye with that spark of possibility. But honestly, not this time. I had purchased my supply of sanitary napkins because I never knew if the cycle would be long or short, heavy or light; a girl sometimes just never knows. Friday, October 4, 2019 came, and I was ready with my supply heading to work to make sure I always had one sanitary napkin in my desk drawer (mistakes happen). I was ready for my ‘monthly woman’ that day, each restroom break looking for her. The day came and went, and she never came.
I checked my app that I used to keep up with my days and didn’t remember if I had put the wrong days in the prior month or if I was running a little ‘late’ which never really happened. Saturday came and I was peeking for her and hoping she didn’t make any surprise visits, but she never came. Sunday morning came and still no excitement inside of me, but I wanted to make sure. I was teaching bible study that Sunday and after church decided to stop by a convenient store for a home pregnancy test. Actually, I purchased about three. Came home and luckily my husband was cooking this Sunday so I immediately went to the restroom to take my test as I was supposedly changing out of my Sunday clothes per what my husband thought.
I used to have so many fantasies of how I would tell him if I were to ever become pregnant, again, but those times came and went so the excitement slowly dwindled for me. I took the home pregnancy test and here comes one pink line which I was used too so I walked off to finish changing my clothes but as I did, I noticed a second pink line slowly rising and my eyes grew big. I stood over that pregnancy test waiting in anticipation and total disbelief like a woman on a scale waiting to see how much weight she had lost. Oh my Gosh!!! That second line fully appeared and my heart starting racing and I begin panting like what do I do? If you know me, I am a planner and organizer. Like I said earlier, I had thought of the ways I would tell my husband I was expecting again but not anymore. I mean this was a time that I didn’t plan for, I didn’t know if I was going to walk back in the kitchen while he was cooking and show him or how I was going to do this.
The planner in me just didn’t know what to do! (Argh, Somebody Help)!! I decided to wait. I said we have to think of something…and I did. My husband’s birthday was coming up and I said first, I want to take another test to confirm everything and that’s what I did. Monday morning on my way to work, I stopped at a local retailer for an "official" home pregnancy test as some people call them, but I’ve also heard that if you’re pregnant, it doesn’t matter. I purchased a Clearblue home pregnancy test because I wanted the words 'Pregnant' or 'Not Pregnant' to appear this time. Took one out of the box and into my purse to take the test at work. I decided I wasn’t going to rush in and take it as I've also heard if you're pregnant, you’re pregnant any time of the day, so I waited until I actually had to use the ladies’ room. Around 9:00am I went to the restroom and tore open that test, took it and waited. That black bar started flashing and as I finished my business (because I still had to tinkle in the first place), watched the bars flash one by one and Surprise!! PREGNANT appeared. Oh My Gosh, again!
Okay, now the planner in me got to working. I already knew I needed to call this doctor and that doctor, and oh yeah, that doctor to tell them and get my prescription because I knew I had to get on a blood thinner fast (more about this later). There was no way God was giving me another chance and I not be ready after what I had previously been through. I immediately contacted all of my doctors; got my prescription called in and appointments made for that week to confirm everything. The highlight of my day and no amount of stress or headaches from co-workers was going to take my joy away.
SURPRISE!!! I’m PREGNANT!!!!